Dreams

      Have you ever had a dream that completely changed your view of life? I don't know how often dreams affect the person seeing them, but it happens. I just had a dream like that. This dream completely changed my view of things, and not necessarily for the better.

"Suddenly all my hopes come crashing down around me from the sky like boulders engulfed in flame. I then get crushed by a particularly large one and the only way it seems I can survive is to lift this final boulder back up."

Getting through the depression caused by the dream was incredibly tough, and I probably wouldn't have been able to do it were it not for two incredibly amazing people. You all remember Raquel, authoress of God's daughter? How about Julia, authoress of Glimpsing Uncertainty and nearly two novels of her own? Without these two, I don't know where I would be. Due to a simple bad dream, I nearly gave up everything I cared about. All my hopes were simply crushed, these including the longing to become everything I ever wanted to be: an author, a musician, a friend. Not only was I brought back from abandoning everyone, including you, my readers; but I nearly gave up my one constant joy: music.

There's a scene in the movie 'August Rush' (which I plan to do a review on very soon) wherein Louis says to August, "You never quit on your music, no matter what happens. Because anytime something bad happens to you, it's the one place you can escape to and just let it go. I learned that the hard way; and anyways, look at me. Nothing bad's gonna happen. You gotta have a little faith." The lines make a lot more sense when put in context of the movie, but when I heard those words again they spoke to me in a new way.

Thankfully, I can say I have regained my love for music.

Hopefully, I will never lose that again. Given the circumstances of me blasting music in my ears whilst writing this post, It doesn't look like it'll be going away anytime soon.

I've learned something through this: dreams will affect you, of that there is no doubt, but don't let them change who you are. I succumbed to that for about 2 days, and I wasn't changed for the better.

Dreams - The Cranberries